New job new place new mates new everything

New job starts today..lets be patience,learn it quickly and enjoy..gotta go a long way bro..gotta beat the odds,challenges..remember me in your prayers bro and sis..I need that now..catch you ( should I say me?) later amigos..

Thank you

Abba

Amma

Mowreen

Fathha

Inara

Shueb

Sakhawat

Tutul

Goni

Murad

And maybe a name which I can not write but has the same strong attachement as everyone has here...

Self conversation

Sometime a self conversation of 30-40 mins helps you to release your pain and helps you to find the solutions to that problems you are going through. Just make sure it's only you..release your pain and talk to your self. Talk to your self..talk to your soul..let them help you to find peace. Ask your questions,ask what troubles you and then think of the positive things happend to your life and how you came through all the troubles you had before and just talk to yourself and Try to find the way..you will find a way For sure I assure you ..do not worry.

No problem last forever, don't make it too complicated by thinking of it too much.

( I do,but I'm learning to come out from this and I believe this Self-Convo is  helping me a lot ) 

By nature we are like this ( when we got problems we worry about that sometimes way too much ) but again by nature we do sort this out don't we? 

Last day at Dunelms and new job

Alhamdulillah got a new job..I'm writing this now out side the shop car park where I work. It's my last day here and I'm a bit upset,sad. It's been almost a year. I will miss this place..good luck to me and all work here. 

No job again

3 weeks left. Need to find a job. Don't know why I feel so stressed and worried. Unrested mind and soul needs a job to calm down. Struggle, life is full of struggle. Every morning I wake up with so much stress..don't know mate..don't know why...let's hope and see..

An update to myself: 

It's over a month since I wrote this post when I was about to lose my job fortunately,I have got a job now and I'm still worried the same amount I used to worry when I first wrote this post. Allah decides your/our Rizk ( food and shelter), Tawakkaltu a'la Allah my brother. In Sha Allah you will settle with your new job and soon you will start enjoying it. Let's just not stress and worry over it. Rely upon Allah and he will guide us throughout our lives. Fe Amanillah.

Realisation

Yesterday was better until I realised it is bad today.

Appreciate everything that you have now,it could have been worse.

Oh job it's you again

Ok! So from next month I'm no longer working in Dun at Duns as a Sec. What a news and what a timing! Struggle time again..Allah decides our destiny..all the best to me.

জীবন এখন যেমন

অনেক দিন হয় প্রাণ খুলে হাসি না, সারাক্ষণ এক চাপা অস্থিরতার ভেতরে থাকি , সকালে ঘুম থেকে উঠার পর থেকেই সে অস্থিরতা শুরু হয় ৷ এক অজানা আতঙ্ক আর ভয় কাজ করে সারাটা সময় জুড়ে ৷ কিছু টাকা পয়সা দরকার , আহা রে একটা লটারি যদি জিততে পারতাম, দেশের জন্য মনটা বড় কাদে ৷ অনেক টাকা পয়সা থাকলে দেশে গিয়ে কয়েকদিন থেকে আসতাম পারতাম যদি ৷ জীবন একটা ঘড়ি..টিক টিক করে চলতেই আছে, বিশ্রাম নেই আর ৷ সকালে ঘুম থেকে উঠার পর চা নাস্তা,তারপর সেভ করে কিছুক্ষণ বউ বাচ্চার সাথে সময় আর তারপর কাজে গিয়ে ৮/৯ ঘন্টা দাড়িয়ে থাকা ৷ আবার বাসা,কিছুক্ষণ বউ বাচ্চার সাথে সময় তারপর ঘুমিয়ে যাওয়া ৷ ছুটির দিন বাজার আর দরকারী কাজ করা, আর একা একা হতাশা নিয়ে চিন্তা করা ..এভাবেই চলছে জীবন ঘড়ি ৷